Sour Girl

Nnng.
I thought a good night's rest would cure the mood I was in yesterday. Not so effective, I discovered this morning. It wasn't much of a help to have a rather sad dream too. *Sigh*. It takes just one thing, one little thing, to get me down and keep me there, and dig me deeper and deeper into the ground. I don't like being like this. I can't help it, and yet I should be able to control it... nnrrrgh.

Today, while searching for something to draw, I stumbled upon a picture of a naked woman's torso. My first thought was somewhere around "Oh look. Boobs. Maybe I should avoid that one..." Then I got to thinking: all kinds of artists out there draw naked people. All kinds of naked people. Men, women, children, old, young, of one race or another. So, I thought, maybe I'd better try to get at least a little over my fear of naked people. By drawing them. Drawing, mind you, involves intense study of your subject... staring at it for long periods of time, trying to get every curve and line and detail on your paper. Drawing is done mostly with your eyes. Anyway... I decided to draw that torso. I think for now I'll stick to naked females. I'm a little more comfortable with them... understandable, I'm a female myself. (Write that down so you remember.) Males are scary. Naked males are scarier. Someday I'll get over that fear. But for now... put the censor boxes back on. And furthermore, in the words of Elaine Benez from Seinfeld, women's bodies are works of art. Men's, not so much. Too lumpy. I admit, I find a nice, chizeled male body very attractive, but as for drawing them... they're are built more of straight lines. Women are curvy. They're easier and more fun to draw. Sorry boys.
Now here's another thing. I will draw an old naked man before I draw myself naked. It's going to take me a long time to get that comfortable.

I've been back on the music hunt. When I was in my "eh, meh, mmph" mood last night, I got a hold of Evanescence. I know, I'm way behind, but at least I got there eventually. I like their piano things... I wish I could play decently on my own. Then, on the search for similar music (and please NOT linkin park. Anything but them.), I went to Yahoo Launch, which gives recommendations for other kinds of music similar to the stuff you picked. I started with Pearl Jam's "Jeremy," then I got a reccommendation for Stone Temple Pilots... and I remembered "Sour Girl" (first heard because my mom liked that song). So I got it. And then I got more STP, and some Jane's Addiction, Hoobastank, Puddle of Mudd, Pearl Jam, and others. I plan to look for more music like it. It's good for these kinds of moods.

As far as that genre's concerned, got an recs for me? (Other types are still welcome)