Is it enough to love?

Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
and leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please...

For you Avril Lavigne fans out there... I'm not one of you. Sorry. But I do like this song. I first heard it... man, a long time ago. Early high school. Michelle played it for me, said she related to it quite a bit. And now that I think about it, I can relate quite a bit too. And I suppose alot of girls can make that claim as well.

Let's go back to one earlier concept: high school. One one note, like many college students, I'd want go back there like I'd want to go to hell. But it's these times when I start reminiscing... it started with Sonja's blog, when she wrote an entry about the things she found in her high school backpack that she never bothered to clean out. They included invitations to grad parties--including her own grad party, notes passed to one another--often illustrated in the way only Sonja could do it, random things from different classes, and pockets full of pen and papers. As I read it... not only did I start getting nostolgic for the days when I would write notes to my friends as I was bored to death in my classes, but I got reminiscnent of such things as pulling out my different pens or pencils for a class... I only bring a notebook and my purse full of pens/pencils to class these days... and the occasional book or two. Yeah, I've gone through the whole year without a backpack...
And I remember around this time, especially when the weather looked like this, I would start feeling this free, fluttery feeling--a feeling that can only come from sunshine for the first time in a long time, springtime, and the fact that summer is approaching slowly. It was also this time when my teachers, along with every student, would start getting lax about school work... students would slack off, teachers wouldn't assign so much. My friends and I would hang out outside at lunch--our only long-term midday break in our strictly regulated school day; it would be about this time that worries about Prom/Senior BBQ would start... And we would beg our teachers to let us go outside for class... I never got that wish from any teacher. Heh, even in some of my classes this quarter we beg our teacher to let us go outside. Mmmm.. chococlate. Sorry for the interruption, I'm eating a buttercrisp bar. Being a big fan of butterfingers, this is a damn good invention. So like I was saying... yeah, I'm getting reminiscent.

And I'm still loving the sun! The warm! The brightness! But not the wind so much. I woke up this morning to a brisk gust of wind in my face, blowing through my little window on me. Being too tired to reach over and shut the window, I just huddled in my big ol' down comforter, hoping it would die down. After so long, my roommate finally graciously shut the window, allowing me to fall back asleep and briefly dream again. The wind hasn't died down all day. It can feel nice once in a while... but usually I like it in refreshing little breezes or zephers... not in-your-face, trying-to-blow-you-away, shoving-your-hair-in-your-eyes-and-mouth gails. It's kinda weird, I usually expect such weather when it's colder, not on such a springy sunny day. I'm not gonna get too much sun today. Between my Linguistics and Anthropology class today, I lay down by the fountain in the middle of red square. Oddly enough, most of the time it was turned off. Somtimes, though, as I lay face face up to catch the warmth and let the wind gusts float over me, I could hear what what sounded like, at first, a bunch of bikes coming my way (I'm used to hearing bikers come up behind me), and then once I realized it was 11 spurts of water shooting up and falling down, I could feel the wind gently carry the mist across me. Those little moments didn't last longer than about a few minutes, though. However, the 20-sih total minutes I did spend in that position were quite pleasant, and I wish it lasted longer.

So you know what? I feel better today. Something tells me I will be dealing with such issues I vaguely described in the last entry for a while, but right now I'm feeling fine.
After posting my blog entry yesterday, I called Mr. Not-Answering-His-Phone one more time as I walked in the direction of his dorm, and I got an answer! It turns out he was getting his buff on at the Rec Center... or his soon-to-be-buff, that is. I will give him credit--he's working on it! And I'm proud of him. So we met, got a lemonade smoothie, never went to Haggan, but instead lounged on the grass that I lounged on earlier. (And I just yelled at him online for being online when he shouldn't be typing because his hands are supposed to be taking a break from such things. I swear, you all are seeing the worst of our relationship on this thing. I push because I love!) My friend Kit then invited us to eat some yummy food from the Pita Pit instead of the icky poison they serve us at school. She, her friend Jen, our friend Jess, her boyfriend Alden, my boyfriend Alan, and I all headed to downtown B'ham for said pitas. Mmmmm. And afterwards, next store to Mallard's, the makers of some damn good ice cream. I had Super Chocolate. They named it well. Alan couldn't resist his favorite: Banana Fudge Chunk. Kit tried some Rose--I want some next time!! Last time I had that flavor, I couldn't taste any rose. Maybe I was sick. Because the stuff she had... I WANT SOME!!!
Afterwards we hung out in Kit's room and watched "Shakespeare In Love." She had never seen it before. It was a success! We all love the movie. Afterwards, we chilled and chatted. I played with her vibrating hamster toy, the "Orgasm Hamster," as she dubbed it. (No, the "playing with it" did not result in any orgasms that night. I just like the feel of things vibrating in general.) Kit's gonna be a fun roommate next year!
So, in conclusion, good times.

Right now, I've got a playlist on Napster going on right now. I wish I got iTunes instead, but it was my parents who provided me this gift for my birthday. I'll be content with it.

Now here's my request to all of you: During the time when I can download nearly any song I want to right now, I will take any suggestions of any good songs to add to my collection. My usual genres of musical taste are rock--which mostly composes of classical rock, a little bit of pop, some bluegrass/country (most of the time, if it sounds rockish, there is a good chance of me liking it), classical, and... a good dance/techno song will do. I ask, no beg you all to provide me with some fantastic, wicked awesome, neato suggestions. Go for it!